Wednesday, July 20, 2005


So I went to my headshrinker today. Not because I really needed my headshrunk or whatever, but because I have to check in every 3 months to get my ritalin...very important.

I don't try to pull the wool over his eyes, but I'm usually pretty stable...I keep order in my life...I try to minimize possible drama. We were talking, and he asked a couple questions that made me a little uncomfortable (he noticed weight loss, dark circles under my eyes, he also thought I seemed tense). I told him everything's great, "I mean, I'm lucky to have a life that's this full. There's so much going on, but it's good...I mean, it means I have a life, right? I'M JUST SO OVERWHELMED (picture dramatic hands on my temples, tears and wailing)!"

I'm not sure if his next move was some sort of secret headshrinker secret, or if it was something to do because he didn't know what else to do...but he opened his desk drawer and offered 2 lemondrops. This made me giggle (which of course made me think it was an ancient headshrinker secret).

We revisited a plan of attack that he's been trying to get me to follow for YEARS. I've been resistent (some might say stubborn). I'm finally giving in. I have to formulate a weekly plan (he's not impressed by my mini planner with pencil scratchings all over to indicate work meetings). I have to plan HOURLY what I'll do each day. Not every hour has to be filled in...but there are extra elements besides work.

We made a list of priorities:
1. Self (includes the gym/yoga, fellowship meetings, journaling, meals, etc.)
2. Relationship (includes planned "dates", although he was pleased that this area seems to be well-maintained. We always include time for each other...which REALLY takes a lot of pressure off this planning process).
3. Work
4. Friends
5. Communication (phone calls to family and friends)
6. Misc. (beading, fire-spinning, sewing, costume-making, etc.)

I'm kind of excited to be making a plan to balance things out. If I don't take care of can I do all the rest?


Blogger Liz said...

I hope this plan of attack works. It couldn't hurt to try it, right? I find that when you write it down and plan it, it clears your mind to take care of what is important--YOU! My ancient secret to make you feel better...A big hug! That's right, I'm giving you a big hug right now from thousands of miles away. Feel it? Good.

11:24 AM  
Blogger Stephen (aka Q) said...

I bet it will work very well. It will be a nuisance, but I also don't think you'll have to keep doing it permanently.

My partner does something of the sort whenever she notices the scale creep up a few pounds. She starts writing down everything she eats. Within a short time, she'll get things under control. Then she can quit writing everything down until it becomes a problem again.

It's all a matter of making yourself conscious of what's really going on day by day. And it's very effective.

11:16 AM  

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